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Sweet Nectar of Freedom - A revisit..
This was what I wrote earlier in my Sweet Nectar of Freedom....
" Talk about 'complete'.., am I any less than those guys who have their significant other by their side..? I don't know!, but you figure this out – I don't have to think of the 'right' place to eat, the right thing/color to wear, the right time to go home, the right place to be..in fact I don't have to be right at all, or even proper - not to anybody..(I know..i sound like a sore loser) but the real truth is, I'm just plain bad at being 'complete'. I dont remember birthdays, I don't care about Feb 14, and I hate those rules and conditions. I really don't understand about rules and conditions and I don't want to understand them. They are just some of the irritating things expected of you, when somebody think you belong to them, yes it is annoying. So for 2006 and years and years to come, I don't want to belong to anybody and I don't want anybody to think that I belong to them…and yes I don't want anybody to belong to me either. I hate the prospects, really. I belong to me, now and forever.."
So, that sounds like I dont need the world eh!. Sounds like somebody just walked away from me, sounds like denials even, sounds like Arsene Whinger LOL..
Yeah, maybe I do revisits afterall and I do whatsthatword..? where you look back, at least once a year and try to figure out if you are still on track.., recollection..? reminisce..? No..not romancing-the-past word..
Well nvm, but the point is I was hard on myself, I was stupid, I was empty, I was building unnecessary brickwall, I was spontaneous and I wasn't thinking - it was something out of the blue. The fact is, we have to belong, no man is an island, never on this planet. Everybody needs somebody..it is part and progression of life. Hey I love woman and I love life..BUT
I still hate the prospect of 'belonging', the cultural template of making your partner feel good and validated, and the prospect of going back and going thru..Arrrgghh!
Somehow in times like this..(Hari raya) you do look back and think whether life could have been more..sigh! I could have easily said that my real raya is actually the Ramadhan..and it is! but it's not complete, I want more and I'm sure there's more..
Rasa very earthly...
OK..It's Sat, for sure I'm not here to write abt some mind boggling question of whether time exist or not or whether time is just a measurment for motion. I'm not here to be drawn into any hypotheticalities either - like whether 9/11 would still be what it was had Bush not been the President of USA...OR whether noise during sex....(o O O bulan poser...), yeah..why not! what is the acceptable noise duing sex (level or kind..)...
Hoho..that's not what I want to say in here..wait, allow me to divert kejap, I was born on Sunday..Asfiza kata, dlm buletin dia on Hari-hari dalam Islam " Hari Ahad ada lah hari Allah mencipta dan membangunkan bumi.." - the very day dia cipta dan bangunkan I jugak.. so Dizz, Liz, Fiza..kalo u nak someone earthly..
Damn..apa yang i nak tulis kat sini tadi.., hang on, the Arabs are killing each other now..Palestine vs Hamas, Syiah vs Sunnah, penat jer I bersimpati dgn dorang,,,bakar bendera orang tu, bakar bendera orang ni, tau tau jer..mamat ni tembak mamat tu, mamat tu pulak bom mamat ni..agak nyer dorang ni, kalo idop tak meletop-letop, tak kental kot.
Takpe la, nanti i ingat apa yg i nak tulis tadi..i tulis balik..
for now..i nak gi beli kuih kat pasar ramadan jap...(mesti Dizz meleleh air liur dgr bazar ramadan..) LOL!
Inheritance of ........
The Oslo Natural History Museum concludes that: Homosexuality cannot be viewed as 'unnatural' as it is found throughout the animal kingdom and therefore it is not against nature...
Hmm..so we now turn to the animals for that ray of lights eh...* sigh *
Between naked men and naked women..? no animal kingdom can ever change my mind... LOL!
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